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[10 Apr 2007|08:51pm] |
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So, a lot has changed since the last time I've posted here. I stopped attending the Art Institute in August. I was denied for more loans. The reality of my financial situation sank in and I realized school wasn't the best option for me. Though I loved the school, center city and everyone I met. I could explain further, but I wont.
Now, I'm working as an Equity Closer in NJ, making far more that I've ever made before. In fact, I plan to purchase my first home in August in NJ, if all goes as planned. I'm happy to have health insurance again too. I miss the life I read about in my old LJ entries, but I guess its the same as a college graduate looking back on their experience, only I didn't get to graduate.
I'm trying to force myself to have a social life again though. I feel like I'm always tired. Between working full time, shooting gigs on the side, and having to drive to NJ every weekend to do my laundry and see my family.
On another note, it makes me so sad that my mom moved to NJ for a fresh start over a year and a half ago and still hasnt found a permanent full time position. Shes still stuck with my grandma. I feel so bad for her. I wish I could help her. At least the I'm not a financial burden on her anymore though. I even offered for her to come live with me if/when I purchase my home.
As for my love life in the past year... its still boring. I came close to a "relationship" but ended it extremely fast.
"There are things I said I would never do
There are fears I can not believe have come true
For my soul is too sick and it's too little and too late
And myself I have grown to weary to hate
The more I stay in here
The more it's not so clear
The more I stay in here
The more I disappear
As far as I have gone
I knew what side I'm on
But now I'm not so sure
The line begins to blur..."
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| bring it back? |
[10 Apr 2007|07:37pm] |
I am considering bringing this LJ back from the dead. Even though it majorly depresses me. I went through and read old entries and I was so happy in school and living in Center City. Ack.
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[08 Mar 2006|08:26pm] |
Kelly came up from Va Beach to visit me for a few days which was a lot of fun. I didnt want her to leave. She didnt get to meet many of my friends which sucks but she got to experience Philly a little bit. We also went out to West Chester, because Mark Hanna's band "backwoods payback" asked me to take photos for them.
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Some photos I took of Kelly for school
This one is a little blown out, but its for my lyric project, and its for the lyric "love is suicide"
another one I took for the lyric project, this one is for the lyric "she hides the scars shes making underneath her pretty clothes"
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| The Metro |
[24 Feb 2006|08:21pm] |
Meg and Cass were in the Metro on Tuesday. Haha.
Meg and Cass were in the Metro Tuesday.
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| Random |
[23 Feb 2006|01:10am] |
I think I'm going to take a baseball bat to my dvd player. It randomly decides not to have sound. It fucking pisses me off. I watched The Hills Have Eyes on the Playstation2 (because Garrett suggested it), but it wont let me play my other movie "Pecker". I guess I will have to force Steve to come over tomorrow and fix the shit. I'm electronically challenged. He already owes me his life anyway.
PS. Netflix is awesome (assuming you have a dvd player that isnt a cock). The next dvd coming is Carmen Electras Striptease video. Why? Imagine this: Me, Cass and Meg in the living room "working out" to it. Yeah, its gonna be funny. I'm sure Shawn will get a kick out of it too.
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I've been trying to get my shit together. I spent a day budgeting my loan refunds (that I live off of), trying to get my credit cleared up (thats a damn process), trying to get everything required to get my PA drivers liscence and register my car (yeah, I still havent done that). Blah Blah Blah.
My hardest class (Lighting) is actually going really well. My teacher said I'm "pushing an A". Hes a very hard person to please... infact hes a very hard person to even talk to. Apparently he likes me a lot. I cant figure out why, but I am pleased. I have Bs in the rest of my classes so far.
This quarter ends March 24th. So I'll be back in Va Beach at the end of the month. Kelly will be here next weekend (with David and Ryan). I am beyond excited.
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| Party Pictures part 2 |
[23 Feb 2006|01:00am] |
Party Pictures Part 2
drinking games (Ryan, Cass, Meg)
Is it hot in here? (me)
(Luis, Miranda, and his cousins)
Meg and I
Megs NJ friends
Tyler
AI kids
The other Christina, Cait and me
Shawn made me an awesome Bday Cheesecake
Christina and (... I cant remember his name)
Cass and I
Mike
Cass and Meg
Laura and Mike
Look at my cute balloons.
Garrett gave Meg a lapdance to cheer her up.
He look like a clown with that pink fro
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| my birthday party photos |
[20 Feb 2006|11:49am] |
So I'm gettin old... but I had a great birthday. Garrett came down from Connecticut and my two of my friends friends from back home (Laura and Mike) spontaneously decided to drive up. It was a good weekend full of drinking, dancing, showing them the sites, walking, eating new foods and playing games. All and all I had a ton of fun.
Also, Meg got me the Andy Warhol- Marilyn Monroe print for my wall and a gift card to Beyond the Wall (a poster shop). Cass got me a purple beaded necklace. My mom got me Garretts train ticket and money to have the party. Laura and Mike gave me a light up necklace (a joke) and just them coming up here was an awesome gift in itself.
Pictures from the party
Anthony and Mandy
Cait, Me, Maria
Cass and Ryan
cass
Christina
dancing
Garrett in his classic pose
Justin, Maria, Tyler
Kristin and Cass
Laura and I
Laura and Mike
Maria and I
Me being dumb
me and cass
Me and ryan... why am I so red!!! He must make me nervous haha
Laura and Mike
Nate and Maria
Shawn
Tiff and Quinn
anthony and I
Tyler and Nate
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| Is it Spring yet? |
[10 Feb 2006|02:17pm] |
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Its suposed to snow 6-10 inches this weekend. Someone shoot me. Please.
Speaking of shooting. To make matters even worse, I had to do a lot of shooting this weekend. PLUS. I signed up to use the studio Monday from 6-10pm. Fuck.
Well, I'm going to Jersey now before it starts to snow.
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| Phew. |
[07 Feb 2006|08:24pm] |
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I was super stressed about wether or not my teacher would like my photos. Hes kind of a loose cannon.
He loved them. He went on and on about them. I was the only person that he called out to say that too also.
I ran an idea about a photo by him and he totally loved it. I'm very excited.
Certain people still suck. I love garrett even more for his reaction to it when I vented to him last night. No wonder hes my "BFF".
I miss Kelly. We should try to call each other more. I know I'm half to blame for that too, and we're both busy... but I love and miss her. Shes the only one I really give a shit about down there.
I like to bold things... and I like randomness.
Karaoke time now.
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| true story |
[07 Feb 2006|08:01am] |
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I was so mad last night that I actually had to fight back tears.
I hate people.
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| recap |
[05 Feb 2006|06:32am] |
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Life (as of lately) in summary...
Went to Connecticut where Garrett and I managed to find things to do besides drive around aimlessly. We saw Broke back Mountain which was quite good. I cried. He works the night shift at a grocery store, so we decided it be fun for me to stay the night there with him while he works. It was an interesting night, I discovered that his job is extremely boring, but at least he had my entertainment for a night... The next day we slept a lot, and went to the cKy concert in Hartford, which was good and bad for different reasons. The next day I left.
I got back to Philly at 11am, went to class at 12:30pm and Karaoke at 9pm. I'm a fucking champ.
I slept a lot the next day.
Finally got out of bed to go to Tiff's little gather at her house.
Slept a lot the next two days.
Today, Tiff and I went to State College, PA (where Penn State is, if you didnt pick up on that) to see cKy play a small bar concert. It was a 3 and 1/2 hour drive in pouring down rain. They played a 2 hour set, which made me happy. Then another 3 and 1/2 hours home. Got home at 4:30 am... and its now 6:40am and I'm still awake. Fuck.
Overview: I am happy.
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| 2006 has been freaking crazy so far |
[18 Jan 2006|04:51pm] |
Last night Meg, Tiff and I went to Karoke to support Kevin and have fun. Steve and his roomate Jason came too. It was a pretty crazy night. I looked cute as hell (and I NEVER think that) and I didnt get any pics of myself. I dont even remember taking half of these pictures. I spent WAY to much money and got pretty drunk. Meg was beyond drunk so Steve walked us home and he helped me take care of her. It was an awesome night and more fun times to come. Saturday is Jamies party out in Berwyn and it sounds like everyones going to be there. I'm sure I'll have lots of photos again.
( PHOTOS HERE!!!! )
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| parties |
[16 Jan 2006|09:03am] |
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Saturday night I went to a keg party at Tiffs with Meg and Cassidy (our new roomie). It was a lot of fun. They had a DJ and three kegs (which were empty long before the party was over). It turned into a huge dance party (and eventually a mosh pit during Nirvana). All the kids from school were there. I took some photos, but not as many as I wouldve liked... I was to distracted. Cass and I stayed till 4am, Meg stayed longer to talk to a guy...
Jamie's party is Saturday out in Berwyn. It should be a lot of fun. Marias boyfriend is DJing and everyone from school will be there. Luckily for me, Leona is driving.
Yesterday I went over to Leona's and hung out with her and Cait all night. It felt like it was a ridiculous 2 degrees outside or something. So it was really nice that Leona drove me home. Its kinda crazy that when our lease is up here (in August) that I have so many offers for places to live. Shawn wants me to stay. Meg and Cass want me to move in with them. Leona would like me to live with her. Its pretty crazy but hey, I feel loved.
The RSVPs for my Birthday Party seem promising... and I only posted it on myspace Saturday night. Hurray.Click Here
Well I have to run. I have to meet Maria to take some photos of her today...
( Click here for photos of the party! )
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[12 Jan 2006|07:51pm] |
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I just finished watching Prozac Nation. I highly recommend this movie! I never finished reading the book unfortunately, so I cant say wether its better than the book or not... but it really touched me. I cried so much throughout the movie, and I havent cried in a long time.
Anyway, today was a long ass day. I had class from 8-4:30. I am so overwhelmed with the amount of shooting I have to do. I wish I had willing models at my finger tips. I have ideas, and I could photograph my friends, but they are just as busy as I am, so its a huge scheduling conflict. I have over 200 photos due in the next two weeks, and they have to be "portfolio quality". I might have already posted about that, but I am just so overwhelmed. Every time I tell someone that I am overwhelmed they just say "you can do it". I know I can, but it doesnt help the fact that I am stressed beyond belief. I've been trying to stay positive, but now I just dont know. I am exhausted and overwhelmed. Have I used that word enough?
I have to go read about lighting now...
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| happiness |
[10 Jan 2006|05:50pm] |
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Today has been an awesomely terrific day.
I went to class at 12:30 (Principles of Lighting) and much to my surprise, my best bud in Philly Steve is in my class. The first 30 minutes of class were pretty scary. My teacher wanted to see where we all were technically with photography, and he started drilling the class with questions. Since I suck at the technical part of photography, my heart was like beating out of my chest. It was intense. I did volunteer an answer (mainly because I didnt want to be called on randomly with a question I didnt know). I was a little off with my answer but I had the jist of it, so that was great. After that he talked for another FOUR hours, but it turns out I really like him. Hes tough, but hes a great teacher and I look forward to working with him.
After I got home, I realized I had a bunch of missed calls, one of which was from Kevin. So I called him back and he invited me to this karoke bar tonight where he will be singing. The whole "gang" from school will be there, so I called Meg and invited her. She might come. Then I called Maria to see if I can stop by her place first, and we can go together (I hate going to places like that alone, but really want to go). She was so happy I called, and we're going to meet at her place. I'm just happy because I never ever get to hang with all of them together, and its going to be a ton of fun.
So... I'm a happy girl.
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| update to the last update. |
[09 Jan 2006|10:00pm] |
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... just as a follow up post to my last entry ...
Shawn and I went to Target to get some cute fucking bar stools for the kitchen. Yesssssss.
Then he, Meg and I went to a little sushi place on 10th and Locust. I'd never had sushi. I didnt care for the raw sushi. I loved the Shrimp Tambora and Veggie Tambora. I also loved their salad with ginger dressing and Miso Soup. Their green tea tastes like popcorn. Yum. Shawn and I were disappointed they did have Saki. We both wanted to try it. (If I missed spelled anything... oh well)
Afterwards, we headed over to wholefoods for some Soy icecream and played the Disney version of Scene it, which was a lot of fun.
I got my ProActive today. Hope its worth the money.
I have Principles of Lighting tomorrow at 12:30, and I have to stop by my academic advisor to get the information to study abroad this summer. Yessssssss.
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[09 Jan 2006|02:41pm] |
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Class went well today. I am already overwhelmed with the amount of work, and its only the first day, and only my first class. It'll be ok though. I am trying to stay positive.
This television show, "Flavor of love", is the most ridiculous thing I've ever seen in my life.
Anyway, for my birthday, I told my mom that all I want is for Kelly and Garrett to come to Philly. So it looks like that is happening. Garrett will be here for the weekend of my birthday, but Kelly wont be here until the weekend after my birthday. So I have two awesome weekends to look forward to. Nothing is written in stone, but it looks like its going to work out.
I have to go meet Shawn later for Sushi. I am going to try it. I dont know if I'll like it.
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